4/19/2023 0 Comments Jibber jabber fun careSo on that note, this thing is 10 hours away from being over. These whole 2 months have been full of realizations that have changed me for the better. Like I said before it’s an awesome realization I came across last week. I can have the same amount of enjoyment and functions without alcohol as with alcohol. But yes I will drink, on occasion and in moderation. I’ve established that with these 60 days. Not drinking at parties and what not is not an issue anymore. So now that it’s going to be over, what do I do? I mentioned this in my last blog and I’m sticking to what I said. I honestly woke up this morning with a whole new outlook on everything. How awesome is it that it’s day 60, the last day, and I realize this. It’s what I was hoping for by the end of this. I have a new perspective on a lot of things now. It’s hard to explain and I can’t exactly go into detail but a few people will know what that’s about. Recently I’ve let a lot of stuff cloud my judgment because of things I’ve wanted to happen and I haven’t been able to really see what’s actually happening. Over the past 24 hours I’ve actually realized that I’ve done this. I actually feel like I’ve gone backwards in a sense. I haven’t worked on my relationship with God as well as I would’ve liked and I haven’t focused on the things I wanted to change in myself either. I’ve kind of strayed away from the real reason I started this challenge. The past 24 hours have been probably the most important 24 hours of this whole 60 days. It’d be nice to stay here but all my family is Texas, so either way it’s really a win win. Somewhere in North Carolina or Texas are basically my two options. I really believe I have come to terms with it and it’s a good feeling. It’s hard but there’s nothing I can do other than accept the fact it’s going to happen. There’s nothing to explain it other than God speaking to me saying it’s going to be ok. It’s crazy talk but I woke up this morning and felt so much different than I have towards it. It’s something every single senior has dealt/ or is going to deal with. I’ve been blessed with the greatest friends a guy could ask for and it’s hard to know that I may not be able to just contact someone and then 5 minutes later I’m hanging out with them. This has been my home for the past 4 years and when you possibly have to leave home, it’s not the greatest feeling in the world. Over the past two weeks I’ve been struggling with the thought of leaving Wilmington. All that’s going to happen at the end of this semester has finally really started to hit me and it’s taken its toll. All in all it was an awesome experience that I will remember for a long time.Ī lot of the ups and downs have come recently too which has kind of sucked. Alright maybe not blood and tears, well not from me at least. There have been ups and downs, trials and tribulations, blood and tears. Well technically tomorrow is the day it’s over but you get the picture. It hasn’t really sunk in yet that I’ve accomplished this but I’m sure it will soon. I’ve learned so much about myself over this time period which of course is really good because that was the goal. It’s hard to believe this challenge is about to be over.
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